long suicidal talk
it was that vague pain in memories that i have to deal with
it is no either, myself
that i had cried for
scream for
kill for
i had vanished in the eyes of the buddha
ganesha gave me a padma
and how the buddha put me inside the lotus
i had been washed
by some tears and blood
my bloody own
i had search till the journey end in this world
just to be compassionate
to the being
to myself
Astrid Reza 